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The last day of 2006 (summary of this yr)

2006-12-31T05:35:00.000-08:00

Hmm....Kind of fast huh...finally is the last 2 hr of 2006..This year indeed is a year which i hope that i will not go thru again, bad, worse and wat kind of word can i use to describe this yr..* I aso dunno...Nv achieve anything and I went thru the darkest valley of my walk with God...Really fall til the deepest..Haiz...But is thru this I learnt alot in friendship and I really step into the world to see how the world look like....Hmm....For the past four yr...In my life only cgm, church, sch and work...No time for any other thing...But this year was a totally different yr for me...I been thru and played thru alot of thing that I nv tried b4...Really...Is fun but at the end you will still be bored out by that..Really..Maybe the HS is alway in me that why He will always be there to remind me what is wrong and right...That What make me different from the rest ba...Even they r not christian....But they r really a good bunch of friend that I nv regret knowing..thru them I learn how to tresure friendship and spend time more...Really...Even tout they like to do 'Monkey business' but when I am having problem and trouble they r the one that stood by me to encourage me and let me feel that I am not alone facing all this...Indeed I thank you guys...thru them I learnt to noe that when there is love,concern and accompany in that place..Everybody will be attracted to there even how many yr they have spend in the previous place...So I told myself, If I will be catch back my fire in cgm, I want to bring the same love, concern and accompany to the cgm whereeven I dun have to called ppl will still come...That is what we use to do in N248...Finally realise....

When friend r having problem called and ask how r u will not heal any hurt and loneliness...but is the our presence that make the different even we cant help much...This few day I kept asking whu is my best friends??? No one ba....Friend that I always called as best friend seem look faked to me during this period of time....Maybe me myself have not being a good friend to them too ba...Haiz only that few that really there for me when I most needed acc...Thanks..you noe whu u r...

This special day I wan to take this time to thank 3 special person..First is wahju..thank girl for all ur encouraging sms, card and sweet during this period of time when I am most down....Indeed I am really veri touched and it gif me the courage to go back to church...Really...Secondly I want to thx yun for beening there to listen to all my complain and story upon story....U nv forsake me when I am down and you kept encouraging me eventhru u r also at ur down period...Love you alotsa..And thx for this 8 yr of friendship..I will indeed tresure it til old....Last but not least is my Dardar, he have been thru as much as me but he is always there to draw to close to God and let me noe that regretless wat we will not leave God and church....You have sarcrifies alot this year to gif me a bata life and thing that I always wanted....Showering all the love and time...Even there is alot of u time where we always quarrel over small thing but as wat yun say which couple dun quarrel...hahas..Love you alotsa dar....

This upcoming yr...I really must achieve back all the thing that i nv achieve this year...And make changes in my charater...alot to change bt I believe if I wan I can de....Love God and rebuild back the love for Him....It might ned me to start fro the beginning again but nvm is not the time tat matter le ba...is the love that I am going to shower to the rest thru Him that matter to me most...We might be not fro this world but we r in this world to make a different...Get out of my old thinking and start my new year well....Great year ahead ba everyone....

Happy 2007......Dar let jiayou together k....

My fun WEEk

2006-11-29T20:50:00.000-08:00

Hmm...Finally have the time to blog again le...hehes...So sori wahju, really no time to blog lah...

yea..Last week was my 1 yr ann with dardar...Fast rite..! yr le...hmm...Really alot of up and down, happy and enjoyable moment with dar..But anywhere which couple dun quarrel..hahahs..I gt a new CPU from dar as a present..Indeed God is good..Coz my CPU crashed last 2 week ago and I told dar abt it and b4 I gif my 1st fruit here my blessing...hehehes..I was really surprise coz the CPU is really veri expensive...I didnt even buy such ex gift for dar loh....So you see....This is how my dar bless me in time of needs...PTL...Although is not a veri romantic celebration but the heart is the most impt thing afterall...Thank dar....

Sat..We went out with the F4 gang and jie bing they all..Coz standley and shengda rent both each a car to drive us out to fellowship...Is really a enjoyable nite coz they are those veri "GARAng/ Tian bu pa di bu pa" ppl...And is also the 1st time I sit in FRIEND car...So is really a special experience...Actually dun want to go de but coz standley purposely go and rent a car to drive us out so really not veri good to push it away...So aft work ard 11plus, we went to ter workplace to fetch him but his captain hold him back til 1 plus so we waited for him for almost 1 hr plus..hmm...Thank huh bro..hehehes..Aft which something happan with ter and his gf so we waited for another half hr..hmmm....By the time he was with us is already 2am....So we went to changi village to have our supper and aso to see those "WOMEn"...Haga...It was the 1st time I have such a close look at them...Really they are so prefect!!! I mean outwardly....That make me look abit......hahahas...After that, standley they all suggest to go Changi OLD hospital...diao....I objected but no use....So we stil went there....But nothing to scared abt lah....Coz we met few other grp inside so the atmosphere is kind of affected...Is nt scary but kind of class outin....hahahs...So aft that they went to yishun to chatchit and home sweet hm....This is the 1st time in my 20 life I do that....But i fun and thrilling...hahahs...Thx guys!!! love ya....

Hmm...

2006-11-03T08:48:00.000-08:00

Hmm.....Here i m to blog again...hehes...recently I was toking to Elsie abt e idea of blogging and she totally dun support the idea of blogging online...For those whu is okay to share their tout and daily event that is still okay la...But cant imagine they can blog everyday telling ppl abt what happen to them...Aft hearing this....Hmmm.....I agree to a certain extend la....To me my secret partner is still my beloved diary....hehehes....I wrote almost everythink inside..Anyway....

Hmm...Sch had reopened...But stil wan to thank God for the joy that He placed in me...Now no more boring and dragging morning where I always gt this mindset of not going to sch and skipping lec but this tout seem to disappear...Kind of weird but stil wan to thank God...Now I am so excited to go to sch coz Elsie, Ida and Eileen is in the same class as me...Yeah....All my Caregrp mate...Life is much much more bata than last sem....Even my shedule is super pack up but just found joy going to sch...Ya, that day I saw our sch last year top student darren...Whoo....He just came back fro attactment in USA...and He won the Mircosoft most valueable member of the year....Cool huh!!! He is only 21 bt yet so talented, handsome and attractive....He just got the sparks and light la.....Hmm....No wonder ppl always said:" Even you dont look good but talent alone can attract ppl "...Pls dun be mistaken k...I am still faithful to the one I choose...hahahas...Ha! So life is not that bad yet...
Ya Fel and Des so sorri for being a pilot on tues....Coz my phone gt some problem cant contact u guys....So sori...Forgive and Forget k.....

Hmm..... This week is a building fund weekend and this time round i am going to really tighten up my belt and give God something that will really Coz my Something...Aft hearing so many testi, I believe when we build God a house, He is going my Build ours...Saying abt building our hse, Mr Terence Tan is going to marry soon....Hmmm....And aft hearing this news, I must really start planning my future...I am already in the "2" club...so hmmm....Plan Plan Plan....But Wat will happen aft Jas go army??? No ppl noe only God Noe so hmmm....But anyway while he is away, I stil gt weilin, des, ron and the rest to kept me acc....So not that bad yet...

Hao la...Going to slp le..Love ya!!!

RESTART!!

2006-10-08T10:41:00.000-07:00

Wa...So long never blog le...I last blog was 3 mth ago...hmmm.....Really alot to share..hehe...Recently just went to genting with des, fel and Dardar... it was fun...Although there will some small conflict and black faces bt still okay...I really enjoy myself becoz it is the 1st time i going oversea with my Friends. The place was romantic and is really suitable for couple...U can see cloud floating pass u... Too long to share everything but I will definately go again..

I almost backslided last mth and thank God for all the words, comfort and confirmation I get from God and my leader, ter. It really pulled me back to tink once again. It is really hard to make a decision and make the right move even you noe which is right. But I thank God for all the happy moment and miracle thing that took place thru out my 3 year wif GOd .. That kept giving me confirmation of where I stand in the kingdom of God..Like wat ter said.. Dun always forces on where you want to see yourself to be and kept fighting towards that that and loses the passion and the place God once stand. But always make sure that God is the center of everything..I dun wish to share much abt this coz is quite Confidence. And I dun wish to bring it up and remind me again.hehes. But indeed is a great experence for me and once again I overcome this mountain..PTL..

Building fund is coming in 3 week time. This time I must really plan properly and gif a good one to Him. Last building Fund I didnt manage to fulfill it. And I kept having this uneasy feeling like I have break my promises to God. So I want to start planning tonight and gif a good one that will please Him.. Amen! After all the good testimonal, It really build my faith up. Although the last mth of building fund fall on my bday mth and mummy have already told me to start saving up for my bday but I am believing God that He will blessed me when I am faithful to build Him a House...

Ya, toDAY ron, dar, joy , weilin , ivan and me dropped by Sis Cindy hse to gif her a surprise...Coz is her 23th birthday..although she already noe we r going to come b4 we gif her a surprise bt we really sit down and spend time together...Really miss her hse, room and the days where we were in her cg...indeed she is the best leader and sister I ever met other than Sun. Hahas...I really learned alot from her and her act and move always motivate me to love God and trust in Him more. We bought her a book..And after all the encouragement Dar and I get from her, I really set a mind me forces myself in God, let Him be the center of my Heart..Although it will be hard but I really dun wan to lose the chance again..

Do pray for us...

Restore and Renew

2006-06-24T07:54:00.000-07:00

wa....so long nv blog le.....Lot of thing happen..first is busy wif work and projects.....Ton of project piling up like a mountain.....And Most of the senior told us is just the beginning...next sem will be more busier than this sem....sobsob...Recently just celebrated dardar 21 bday....Although is his bday bt I was bless with present also....hehehehe....A Ed hardy top and a cute toy dog for my DARDAR...hehehes....Veri the happy...Pastor always said loving each other is not just telling each other how much u love him/her bt is thru giving.....And indeed I found someone that really love me lot and take good care of me when I most needed it.... The BBQ was great...One step closer to his family...hehehes...Mayb is becoz I came from a broken family that why when I feel accepted into the family, I found a great joy within me...hehehes...On the actual day, we went to sentosa...Spend alot but wat the most impt thing is the memories we have make on that day....Took more than 170 photos....hahahahas....I will nv forget....Just wan to take this oppunities to thx Bro Moo for all his sarcrifies and time to plan all this for jasper...Indeed a great buddy of ours....

That day, I spoke to bro terence...Aft toking to him, I realise that for this half year I seem to pressure myself with growth...Wheneven I feel that I m not achieving wat I have planned to achieve I will stress myself...As time passed, I become weary and sick of all the thing that I am doing....Joy left me when I do all those thing....No longer I m carrying that joy that once in me....Only tireness and bunden...It became a duty for me...Now I m happy and carefree...No more heavy bunden and stress...Mayb it take time to heal and restore ...As long the faith is stil in me, I believe I will pick myself up again de..But for now I just ned a good rest...No point doing all this when your joy for Lord is no longer there...Build up the joy and the love that is in you...the Relationship is more impt than all this.....Wat is the point of getting a position up there but lost the love and relationship with God....Might be veri spiritual outward but inward is all emptiness.....hmmm......When there is a relationship with God, auto you will produce a joy in you to do all the thing for Him..... all thing will fall into place nicely...No point stressing myself to do something that I have no joy in doing..This is another wors I get from my best friend, HS.....Jiayou,CLara...

Be a Light in the WORLD

2006-05-21T20:15:00.000-07:00

hmm....veri long nv blog le....haiz...kind of busy this few week...Busy with sch,project,work and POS training....Veri the tired but kind of stretching my capicity lah....Stil dun use to it so some how cant balance it well..tend to forget thing easily...Even dardar aso said that im a " ah ma"....haiz....Got to improve...Yest pst said that even we are in this world bt we are different...thru us ppl will see the Light..Hmm...Hahas..trueTrue....Mayb is really the attutide toward talking and reacting to ppl ba...Take for example, although our principle in life is different from the non-believer but when they see a different in you compair to other , they will auto b attracted to u...My workplace is one of a example...In there, me and jas is the only christian down there bt we are not cast out or wat..instead we can relate easily with them...and become good friends...When they gt any problem they will cum and share with us...Cool...I start to fall in love with my workplace more and more...and the manager and captain are good to us...and even recommand us and praise us...Hmm...Really shine among the rest...So life there is easy...hahahas...thank God for the favour of Man...
I went to watch the DV code...Hmm...Veri complicated..dun really understand...Bt didnt really affect me alot lah...coz i just take it as a story....But this show really open doorways to reach out in my workplace....Ppl begin to have interest in the true gospel and we as children of God are there to bring the correct truth to them....Many of my friends at workplace kept asking us... wat we learn and even wan us to explain the show to them and wat is wrong abt the show...Hmm...So decide to buy " Jesus and the DV code so that we can explain it in a more correct way...

3in 1day

2006-05-02T21:19:00.000-07:00

Thank eli and joy for your encoragement msg...."P hahahaahas....now in sch library blogging...hmm....3 hr of break...veri the bored...haiz...Cool I like my course more and more..Find programming more & more interesting....I was reading a book on how to deal with ppl who r insecure...One thing that i learn is to confess out thing that you dun like into likes...wheneven you feel conderm or worse abt yourself mediate on God word...Said:" I am rigthous in Christ Jesus"...Keep cofussing and one day you will find that when ppl conderm you or said word that hurt you, you will nt be hurt so easily...For you now where you stand in God...When you noe your standing in God, you no longer will feel worse abt yourself...Amen!!
all of us are God proudest creation...
yest was a terrible day for me...Cough, flu and sore throat just come 3 in 1 day....The throat hardly can describe the pain 2 u guys...Wat i can say is Sharp pain when i swollow my saliva....But thank God, feeling better today...One thing I wan to testify that is wheneven I pray in Jesus Name, the pain in the throat stopped...Cool huh...Bata then medical...I think yestersday others than drinking bottle of water and pumping medical then thing that i did most is praying....And thank God today the sharp pain gone totally...Hurray....Father, Greatest healer...
Hm....Tonight going for my 3 lesson bs on choosing e right partner....last week i learn abt the 8 flaws that wil affect our relationship....& and funniest ting was when pst going thru pt by pt, you can hear alot of funny sound cuming fro behind...sound like: "Hmm...", fake coughing sound & ....I believe aft attending this class, i can really help member whu have relatioship problem and friend that planning to get into a relationship some good advices...heheheheh

WORD can kill...

2006-04-25T10:34:00.000-07:00

Sometime i just wonder why ppl like to push the blame on other when in the first place is he/she whu say first or did it first.....For example there is a fight at my workplace today...Two guys fight becoz the wrong side refuse to say that he is wrong and turly the ppl ard him whu saw the whole incident agree that he is at fault....Haiz..than he kept pushing the blame to the other side hoping that ppl will stand on his side...But without knowing how other had say him....Sometime when we did something and the situation turn to our disbenifit, human (bt not all lah) will start blaming other and forget wat they actually do or say in the first place...But God say if u r at wrong, then you shldnt blame other but shld openly apologise to the opp in public in order for you not to sin...Blaming other is aso a SIN...M i rite?? So think careful be we say anything sometime u might just hurt someone becoz of a WORD or ACTION....WORD can KILLED...BECAREFUL...

WHERE r u heading too????

2006-04-25T00:29:00.000-07:00

hmm...aft sun service..I FINALLy woke up...wat my vision and goal??? Do u guys ever ask yourself and r u heading to it??? To me...this few mth, I am like sitting on a boat and i also dunno where it will go to....just counting my days and live a life that a human must live.....Wat is my purpose of getting attrached??? Hmmm.....All this questions finally resurrected on sun.....Aft my mentor told to me....In this relationship, I am suppose to help my DAR fulfill his propose that is to became a CGL...And as for me is to become a CGL...So finally both of us decided to pick ourselve once again....From this days onward, we are going to achieve wat we havent achieve....Thank Sis cindy for her encouragement word:" You are a strong women of God, I know u can do it de"...Tis words really touches my heart and really build my spirit up too...and also ron thank God for his sweet and encouraging card that was given to me on my birthday...Although I am quite lost nw,dun have a clear view and plan on where shld i start first bt now the most impt thing is to find back my first love and the passion for the new friends...For He first love me...Amen!! everybody out there, i believe everyone of us will go thru a period where we lost our first love bt as long as you have the positive attitube to pick yourself up...then you have already win half of the race once again...4 satan first motive is to break our relationship with Him...Is so easy to break us up....once our focus is nt God first, it is so easy to b defeat...Trail and problem may come bt as long the love is there nothing and break u and God...LETs RUN the RACE AGAIN.....

Ya, sch finally start and this sem I have 7 module...Sobsob...7 LEH....Actually yest I was thinking of quitting de coz i scare that it will affect my studies...But i think of sis cindy...The tout just disappear...Sis cindy is now in SOT...Aft her SOT she still have to rush to NUS to continue studying...bt more than that she is holding two CG at the same time...And she is aso into a relationship...that day i just realise she taking part this year dance perfoemance for emerge....Sometime i wonder how did she plan her time...Wa she really my role model lah....when i ask her, her reply was....I wan to stretch my capicity...Whooo.....So that encourage me to stretch mine toooo....So i will continue taking part and i believe God will guide me thru de.....Jiayou,CLARA....

Choosing the Right partner #1

2006-04-20T06:05:00.000-07:00

cool...yest i went to attend " choosing the right partner" first lesson....Is so different from the rest of the bs..The class was over crowded and everyone is divided into different team...And i m in T3...and we started with a ice breaking game... follow by the lesson...Is really a verin enjoyable lesson...i learn alot fro that..it really help me to build up my relationship with jasper in a bata way...one impt thing that i have learn is tat...Dun always let one side cum out with suggestion and idea where to go bt is both say giving suggestion together...If only one side doing all the thinking, the other side will feel control....that a veri important thing.....to avoid quarreling.....One thing that really shock me is when pst say tat God doesnt Choose your mate for it...When he say that, my reaction was" HUH??''...And i huh the loudest loh...Paisia...hahahas...I always think that our mate is chosen by God...And pst continue to explain...God have an ideal partner 4 everyone but when cum to choosing is ur own choice whether you think that he/she is the right one ant.....God will nt reveal bt He will put he/she ard you....So u gt to chosse properly...And i learn that why many ppl stay unattached, 3 deadly myth abt love and 8 type of relationship that wont work....Cool huh...I really enjoy this class, really....Alway remember you love your partner is not because of his X factor or how spiritual or handsome/pretty he or she is....or u look at he/she as ur role model, or he/she can make up a good team with you....But the key word is "you both turly love each other, meet each other need correctly and let God be the center of this relationship".....Aft the class, we continue with another game....Everybody went into their grps and we play the angel and morter game....and we r suppose to get our morter a blue gift next lesson....haahhhahahahs...Really enjoy it alot....And it really enlarge my friends circle....

Yeah, sch starting soon...I gt my timetable this morning..thx God, i have a good timetable again...hahhas...This tiem round i am going to score "Z" for at least one subject...this is my goal for this new sem...I am going to put in my 100%...yes, clara you can do it de..Amen!!....

MAMA I love U!!!

2006-04-12T00:24:00.000-07:00

This week is really a different week for me...hahahahas....My relationship with my mama have grown bata aft my new maid came....I think is becoz of the stress and thing ard that why my mama blown out easily in the past...But aft all I still love her alot...Yest i went shopping with my mama...Dunno when is the last time i went out with her....I just enjoy it....I really wana thank God 4 taking care of my family during our difficult time...God did nt make us poor...for He was born poor so that we can be rich....Yeah... my bday is ard the corner, and this year is special...coz Im nt alone.....hehehehes...and my mama actually book me in advance to celebrate my bday...COOL huh.... I miss my daddy...Hope that he is fine!! PAPa where r u???

4th mth ann...

2006-04-03T19:54:00.000-07:00

yeah.....today is me and my dardar 4th mth ann....veri fast huh...four mth le...WA seem like dunno how many year le...Maybe is becoz i know him for 2 year plus b4 we get together ba..that why!!!..But this 4 mth many quarrel and misunderstanding...But thank God we always try the settle it b4 the thing became worse...And turely many time is me whu started the quarrel...and he is always the one whu give in...he is a caring and loving person...Veri funny....When i facing problem, he is alway there to cheer me up....hahas...I thank God that i didnt make the wrong choice by getting into relationship with other guys but with the chosen one...And like wat bro shawn said, I have wat he dun have and he got wat i dun have...So is this which help us to correct each other in our weak area..COOL...That why I always tell u girls...If u wan to get into relationship, wait patiently...God have already chosen someone better than the one u chosen...It maight just b a sudden crash or puppy love and get hurt in the end, dun waste the time but use it to serve God.. The time will cum...apply to bro also...

Yeah my bday reaching soon.....hahahahs...SO excited bt finally hit the number 2....Wa fast huh...Getting older...hahahas....That day me, jas and my mum when to souel garden...I didnt expect my mum to b go cheeky....we went ard 8 plus and by 915 we noe that the ppl going keep all the food so As wat every singaporean will do ,Mr Jasper go and took a mountain of meat and a plate of fruits..My dear MAMA went to take a whole plate of sushi and me..I took a bowl of ice k and a plate of chicken wings. In the end, we couldnt finish and will think what shld we do wif all the food....and u noe what? My mom went to peer off all the raw fish fro the sushi and she went to watson to get a plastic bag and pour all the food into the bag...ahahahhahahahhs....I didnt even think of that.....O no...this is the first time i do this kind of thing...Dun learn k...But jasper and mom relationship went to another level...My mom get to noe jasper more.....So happy....

FEAR OF THE LORD

2006-03-30T19:54:00.000-08:00

Praise the Lord , I pass my subpaper...Prayer Really WORk....Thank God...For I noe everything is in God Control....Just wana thank those whu have pray for me...thank you!

Ya...just now I was reading " Drawing Near", chap 3...I learn alot from that...Many Christian may always share abt the love of God But forget to disciple abt the fear of God..It is not the love of God that keep us from sin but is the Fear of God.. When you lack of the fear of God it is difficult to draw the presence of God down.In cell grp and svc, the praise and worship can be excellent and the fellowship can be fun and cool, nor how scriptural the prayer is. If He is not feared, Hw will not come near to reveal Himself. The Presence of God have nothing to do with how good ur voice can be and how innovative the thing is planned , But God presence reflect the condition of the heart not on thing and event.
Many of us may address ourself as Christian who called Jesus our Saviour and love Him but we do not fear Him as our supereme LORD...We can love and image of "Jesus" we have created in our own imagination and understanding but it not be the real Jesus. For Scripture tell us that the fear of the Lord is beginning or starting point for knowing God intimately. But scared of God and fear of God is different.The person who scared of God and afraid of Him has something to hide , he doesnt not want to come near God because the pure lightof God presence will expose what he hide.But God doesnt wan us to scare of Him but fear Him..."God have not give us a Spirit of fear"..Amen! ..
Drawing near is good...I benefit alot from that...So now going a apply it into my life..

Ahrrr veri ganjiOng

2006-03-29T21:22:00.000-08:00

Ahrrr.....tmr I am getting my subpaper result le...veri the nervous....If this time round I dun clear this paper i might be kick out by my school...So everyone whu read this must really pray for me...k...THANK ALOTSA...And I believe everyting is in God control and He will surly have His plan for me..Amen.
Yest I was surprise to noe that one of my friends at my working place was an EX member in church during the hollwood days..He was a PCGL during that time attending cg and svc regularly, loving God and his goal is to bring in new souls.. But christain do go through trial and test..He became veri rich and start to gamble...And in the end backslided...follow by then he went bankrupt...And when I see him now...Totally change...Up side down...And his story let me realise something...Without God in your life, you will lost ur vision and ur purpose in life...Keep heading to a place where you dunno where you will end up in...When I ask him what r u going to do he didnt even noe...This remind me of something....Even how difficult life might be...esp in the area of money, DUN let money control you bt YOU controlling money...God didnt make us poor...So I tell myself even how difficult the walk is, I will never leave Him...NEVER!!!

AOther day past..

2006-03-15T19:25:00.000-08:00

Yeah..Problem solve...ahahahahs...Yest nite work til 1am plus reach hm 3am...Super tired but this morning gt to wake up at 7am to work again...AHRRRRRRRRRRRR.....Yest I just recid sister benny call regarding SUN fan club..I am going for a breifting this cuming sun and most pro going for a MEAL with SUN and other fan club member next sun....so excited.....Must dress nicenice...Wa, I really thank God for this cybercafe Job...Whu will pay you to surf net...?? HERE LOH.....Everyday i am like watching movie and surfing the net and wait for time to pass...and go hm....hahahahahs...COOL huh...But going to quit soon coz somebody refuse to let me work here...sobsob gotta meet here ALOTSA....

Veri the upset

2006-03-14T19:45:00.000-08:00

I am so upset...Why cant he just have believe in me?? I am old enough to take care of myself...Insist of wanting me to quit my job...I dun like this...Care is not like that!!! kept insisting..I dun wan to left in debt anymore...I wan to faster work and clear of all the debt and buy some stuff that i always wanted...I dun wan this kind of lacking life.. God did nt gif us a lacking life bt a life that we can enjoy.... I noe that the place is not veri safe bt wat will they do with me??? I work in the daytime, sitting in the counter the door are big and transparent..Watever thing happen, everyone can see thru...I dun understand why he said not save....Wat the problem with foreigner staying upstair...I am not going to go up....from the days I start work til nw, He been nagging and nagging....Sobsob..veri super upset....

And God is with me, wherever i m HE is with me always to protect me....

another new day

2006-03-13T18:35:00.000-08:00

ya.. yest forget to thank my beloved sis wahju for creating this so beautiful blog for me....thank gal !!!! yeah another day have pass...hahahahahahas...yest we went to watch big mama hse with our new friends.It was a veri enjoyable one..enjoy it alot..Veri long nv have big gathering le..gt to organise more. sianz lata gt to go to sch...hiaz....hao ba...wish me all the best ba...

New Beginning

2006-03-12T19:51:00.000-08:00

Wa, after so long this is the first blog I'm going to write for this year. Last year was a veri memoriable and exciting year for me. I almost fulfill all the goals that i set in the beginning of the year. One of the most happy and achievable thing was that I recid my Ministry Membership Card(MM) which I always wanted to achieve. Indeed God is a VERI good Father when you r faithful on what He has give you, He will definately reward you for what you have done. This mark off my next journey with Him..Second thing is that I am attracted.HAHAHas. He is caring, loving and most impt his passion for God and lost souls never faded. Is his passion and never give up spirit that attact me most. Regardless what situations he is facing, he never give up but continue to believe that God will bring him thru. LOLs.. So as a SIS in christ I believe one of the most impt thing is to find a guy that can lead you and helping you to fulfill your destiny and the calling that GOd had given you.hehehes.
Yeah!!
So this year,I am going to achieve higher both in my school and spiritual life. Althought the year didnt straight veri smoothly but I believe I am going to make it thru AMEN..I have conquer so many MOUNTAINS, evey level cum greater challenge..So Can Make it de, as long as God is with me and My best friend HS.hehehe...

2005-09-17T01:15:00.000-07:00

wa yest evry the angry...sometime cannot b too good la...Ppl just dun appreciate it...just wan to remind "?" nt to online too much prevent fro parent scolding in the end...Haiz...Let them have ear hear la...I gt past experience that why advice "?"...I m nt going to advice "?"anymore..Rather use that time on someone else...at least they stil noe how to say thank you!!! Eeh...........Super irritated...
Forgive and forget..nvm...
Wa this week finally holiday bt my time seem to b veri veri packed up leh....nt working no nothing...Hmm....Must really manage my time well..Yest bro ter was sharing with us abt our goal card...hhahas...then i think back wat i wrote e card and realise still gt alot haevent fulfill...aiyo...left with 3 mth and we r cuming to the end of the year...must really faster...Bt 1 thing tat i m proud to say is that i learn to play guitar and wanting to play for cg..i accomplish that..hahahas..so encourage those reading this msg to faster go and find ur goal card out and start doing them...

Miss my CHEC friend alot...
1 life to live live it to the fullest!!! Amen!!

my SEASON cuming!!!

2005-09-13T19:00:00.000-07:00

wa...this two week really a break thru 4 me...i gt to do alot of thing tat i nv do before in the cg...Finally feel the strech le.... my season is cuming...my season is cuming...hahaha...yest went for home visitation...Seeing hw the parent ask those diff question but bro ter stil stay so calm to ans every question the parent ask really make me feel tat i stil gt alot of thing to learn la..order to rise up to a leader...hahahas...And i aso realise that i have to equipe myself more on the Word of God in order to disciple the members...Stil gt alot to learn...
Ronald going in to army soon...and dunno hw des nw...Sobsob..miss him alotsa...He b back on 23 this mth...next week...hahhaas...yeah...
Ya...must take thid chance to thank joanna...Thank God that she is with me...finally found a sister that can share burden with me...yeah...Thank JOANNA!!!

Youth Ed..

2005-09-09T00:59:00.000-07:00

wa..this morning woke up at 6 plus to fetch des to pasir ris...Sobsob..bro des have set off to army...really miss his craps and voice ar...and i believe n302 felt tat loh..Esp jasper..when the bus moved can see tat jas wanted 2 cry le loh...hahahas..Oops if jas see this he will kill me men..reach there early in the morning wish to give Des a surprise...Celebrate his two week in advance bday...tout tat he will cry bt No loh..haiz mission failed..bt i can see tat he really dun wish to leave us de loh although he said tat he is excited to go in...bt nvm la we will see him in 3 weeks time..Botak...dunno wat he doing nw...wondering..??Mmm....

Today is the 1st day for our youth ed svc...Super fun la..is cool man..when pst preaching abt heaven and hell, out of the sudden a ques pop up of my mind...i realise there is only two kind of religion tat tok abt whu is our saviour Jesus and.... The rest is all abt if u offan whu u will get bad lucky...overall is all abt respect lah...aiyo..the more ppl tok bad abt CHC the more it will increase my level to believe God more..sometime wondering so many religion why must christain always be the one tat been precaution...and i cum to a conclusion tat i believe there must b a X factor tat in GOd, is my God more real and powerful...coz usually is when something is real then there b gossip abt it de ma...bt nevertheless nothing can stop me fro believing him ma...N302 must GROW..mutiple by next year jan....AMEN!! run aft the vision...

2005-09-01T03:00:00.000-07:00

Oops another revelation ar..hahahas...out of a sudden i felt veri bless to b in this cg..I love N302...when i m with the cg, i felt tat there a sense of belonging...enjoy all the time i spent with them...My beloved spiritual family..when i m tired is the sis and bro that cheer me up and encourage me..where esle on this world can u find a bunch of friends tat will always b there for u: asking hw r u or r u doing fine lately...Without failed, every week...hahahahas...Sometime really cant imagine hw would i spent my life without GOD and church??? I think i rather die..But tat day surely wouldnt cum to pass de...Now i finally understand why leader always said ur walk with GOd will b a unforgettable one...YEs!! I really went thru alot of thing tat non believer wouldnt get to go thru de...All the GOOD TIME AND BAD TIME...
I believe that there will b more exciting thing ahead of me...AMEN!! here i cum...

DUN ALWAY TELL PPL HOW BIG UR problem IS, BUT TELL UR problem HOW BIG UR GOD IS...

Ya, BRO moo going to NS next week...SOBSOB...

Bury my OLD MAN once again!!

2005-08-25T23:00:00.000-07:00

My blog and CLARA is ALIVE...hahahhaha...wa didnt realise that i have not been blogging for more than three mth le...Really veri busy lah with sch work and work...Really no time to blog at all loh..Slping aso nt enough le..hahaha..thank you guys for all the messageS...
I decided to restart my blog partly is becoz from today onward going to share with u guys my new walk with God again...This few mth especially aft mutiplication i sudden lost track on wat i m doing...Doing for the sake of doing..But never really run aft wat i m call to do...hiaz...and become veri weary and tired of all the thing...But thank God, He never forsake me or live me alone....and i just gt a revelation from Him...All this started becoz in the beginning i DUN have a strong foundation in my walk that why everytime BIg MOuntain appeared i find it so hard to overcum it....So from today onward i m going to feed myself (spiritman) with more GOD WORDs in order to build a Strong foundation...even through i have to start from the basic bt i rather have a strong stand than to kept feeling tired and weary of serving Him..I love HIM more than anything else...so i really dont want to continue walking with this old lifestyle bt..... a different way of experiencing HIM again...more personal encounter and revelation...IS this tat will carried me through..AMEN!!

MORE THAN WAT THIS WORLD OFFER, HE IS MY ONLY TREASURE...MY WORLD MEAN NOTHING WIHTOUT HIM...

Tiring week!!!!

2005-05-26T00:47:00.000-07:00

Frist wana thank bro moo for changing the colour of my blog 4 me... It looks more soothing and comfortable..esp the green colour part...thanx ya!!wa this week indeed was a veri tiring week...from the 1st day of sch til today...everyday i must stay in sch fro 8 plus till 9 plus 10 at nite..so tired!! is really a different life in ploy compare to sec life..is fun of coz...bt the 4 to 5 hr of breaks really veri the sian...nothing to do and somemore my break time is diiferent for weilin their all...sobsob..haiz...can you imagine having classes in the morning fro 10-12 and next class start at 4 pm..haiz somemore cannot skip coz is tut class..and somemore gt makeup lesson at nite til 9pm..bt despite all this i stil gt POS...i enjoy myself alot at the prac...that the only entertainment i have...aft long hour of lessons...i just felt that our Tp dance is cool and powerful...so i believe we will at least get a top three this time round...Oops!! to proud..must humble...hehehes...bt i always tell myself all my hard work, i do it for one person that God..so regardless hw tired it is, i will still hang on de..and also score well in all my subjuct...to glorify HIM!!!

ya... i just felt wierd toking to my classmates...haiz..just felt veri diiferent fro them...Esp i used to be in chec and church last year and watever we tok there will surly be God testimonals and member situation to tok abt...we will tok abt our revelation..bt here i cant share with them nw..and of coz they would;nt share with me ...and i still ned time to build up the relationship...Amen!

i know i can do it!!! kk lah super the sleepy....hehes...goody nite!!!!

SchOOl Reopening...

2005-05-24T00:40:00.000-07:00

WOw..finally aft a long break..i m going back to sch tmr...A new enviroment, new way of learning,new subject, new friends...Everyting seem to look New...That remind me of the first sentence of the bible..."In the Beginning"..Ooop! sori seem to have no link lah..hahahas...
Last week,i went for the sch orentation...horrible and boring....My class was a bunch of boring,anti-social and ..........U shld know wat i mean....*maybe they are too shy??*and the worse thing is i m the oldest among man..they really can called me aunty CLara...Aiyo..find hard to communicated with them leh..Dun understand in cg why i can bt went it cum to outside i cant huh??So i told God i am going to be the special wan AMEn!!in dressing, the way i present myself...Big Sista must also be a mature one...I wan to be the HEAD bt nt the tail...Wif the glory,wisdom and knowlegde of God...I m going to fight a good fight...1,2,3 YES!!! Sound like going for a battle huh??? hahaahs Pls pray for favour of Man, Wisdom and knowledge 2 cum upon me.. sometime quiet ppl is more easy to reachout le..whu know!!...HAHAHas...
k lah...All the best to me lah...Going to slp le..i Wan to get out of the Panda club....Esp the Chairman posT..hahahas...goody nite...Wif God Love!!!

God is my Strength!!!

2005-05-19T00:09:00.000-07:00

WOw..super tired..just came back fro POS...Today was our 2nd viewing..althought TRP was not veri prepare bt we put in our best effort to make wat we have PREFECT...the dance was whooo...I am really proud to be as part of TP harvester..They are really Friendly, encouraging, funky and....Really thank GOD for them and have enjoy myself..hehes...at least i know that i m not alone at TP...SCH REOPENING SOON! sobsob..really tired physically and mentally...Got so many thing to do...POS prac,Guitar final exam cuming in two week time,sch reopening,Stil have to work,gif tuition and chior prac..seem like that 1 week 7 day is not enough..aiyo..musy really sit down and plan my week..I know i can do it de..if Pst and leader can, i also can...For GOd is my strenght!!! when i am tired just lean on HIm lah..Nothing is impossible for me..hehe

K lah..veri tired le..GOing to slp..hehe..LOVE GOD!

I m A OVERCUMER NT RUNNER..

2005-05-15T00:30:00.000-07:00

Today veri e sad...cant join my cg at sentosa..due to bad sore throat..bt nevermind stil can orangise somemore de...hehee.. ya, finally brought 'Drawing Near'..Havent really start reading but i believe it will be a good book tat bring my spiritual life to another level de.. But i Learn something from the first chap..Remember that all the thing you done in church or cell grp is not for show or u do it for other.. but u do it for GOD..Regardless how tired you are remind yourselve that you do it for God to see not other..Example: that day i was doing my regular grp update, den suddenly i remember that i forget to call one of my new friend bt my update time was at 8pm and i left 5 min do all the typing and collation..suddenly sinful tout just flash pass my mind..I was thinking of just sms and said tat de new friend not cuming le.. but thank God for Holy spirit, He remind me of wat the book said and i quickly cal her and guess what?..She agree to cum for svc..If i didnt cal her, she would have miss a chance of knowing God even bata and i will had commit a Sin..
So always remember, everyting you do, u do it for God and He see it and have prepare the reward in Heaven.. Last three weeks, I was having a spiritual attack..Both my life and spiritual life was been affected...wheneven i cum pass spiritual attack, i always can overcum it easily..but this time different...Now i know why Pst always said we grow fro Glory to Glory.. Ppl always said tat Christain life is just like a bed of Roses..yaya! a bed of roses with thorns... each time when we go through a mountain, there will surly be a greater mountain infont of us waiting for us.. And this time i fought a harsh battle..Even how hard i try to climb over the mountain, i just couldnt get over it...I almost wanted to give up and take a break...bt in the book of 1 cor 10: 13...
God said' No temptation has overcum you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able,but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it'.

So God send weilin to me...I didnt tell her anyting about of spiritual attack bt she just felt that Holy spirit wanted her to pray for me... And after the prayer, my spiritual life was recharge again.. and ready for next battle hahaaaa...during my attack, i know that something was wrong with me, bt i just refuse to tell anyone and even God and even blame Him for all the bu xin He had put in my life..But God is still graceful and GOod, He didnt blame me for being rebellion..I know that He love me so much that He wouldnt let my suffer all this when He know that i cant take it anymore.. and He also promise to bring me through de..GOd is a good promise keeper...hehe...So i encourage my friend who is reading this msg..if u are facing another difficulties in your life rite nw..share with God and your member before you really harden your heart..and no longer willing to recid His invitation again....

Let overcum all this together lah..WE are all overcum not Runner...AMEN! Love HIM ALways